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I sit here in the evening.
I room filled with people.
Yet left alone to my thoughts.
I think of my mother and wonder.
How will I react when she passes.
I script the words in my head.
I scream “no why did you leave. You selfish bastard. You’ve left me once and your leaving me again.
It never ends to disappoint.
You,my father,my sister.
I sit here in tears and look at the mistakes I’ve made.
How I single handedly ruined my own life. How the thought of leaving the ones I lived would help there lives be better.
I sit here in tears and look back at the good things. Those good things are in my past.
Perhaps that’s why I’m looking back.
I’m scared to move forward can’t you understand that. Why do I make you cry.
Understand I love you all. I’ve never stopped caring but I wish you all did have to exist in my life. So you never had to care. Maybe if I just vanished you would forget.
I know it would take a while but eventually I would just be a brief memory. You will all move on with your lives to bigger and better things.
If only I were selfish enough, if only I had the balls. To leave The beautiful so I don’t have to ruin it with my blemish of a soul.
I love you all so much.
“cap”
“cap”
“what is it bruce”
“hulk like cap smell”
“bruce, please stop”
“does hulk smell patriotism”
“stawp Bruce.”
“Dat’s gay”
“I thought we were science buddies Bruse.”
“what happened to us?’
“what am I doing here?”
“what’s gay?”
“the fuck is this?”
“the fuck is that?”
“help”
Lmfao. XD
(Source: ariannestark, via zofmayhem)
